- Love beyond measure! Grace abounding!Mercy unlimited!Our Lord would equally give to all!
- Love beyond measure! Grace abounding!Mercy unlimited!Our Lord would equally give to all!

Permit me to share my story without revealing my name.
I have a Jewish root; I was born just like any other child. I grew up in the midst of Palestine. I had all manner of dreams like any other young female child.
Home wasn’t a very pleasant place for me because my parents wouldn’t understand my struggles. It all started sometimes in my childhood, by the time I was a teenager it was growing bad and at my early years in adulthood my life was something else.
I had suffered terrible experiences, ranging form abuse, rape and molestation, my life soon began tearing apart.
I’ve wanted even to commit suicide but somehow I just couldn’t end my life. There was no where turn to. No body would associate with me except for a few, but they had similar problems. I was an object of ridicule to those who knew me. Men in their numbers had taken advantage of me; I have run from one unsaved hand to another in my desperation. Unsaved hands have used me and rob me off my self esteem; they had left me depressed and insecure. Some guys thought, I was stubborn at first, others said I was difficult to persuade but my walls of resistance soon began crumbling, when there was no where to turn to for trust. I was looking for love in all the wrong places. I ended up being used and dumped form one man to another.
My greatest prayer
My greatest prayer has always been that I should never be caught, because the penalty for such an offense in my community is not how I would have loved to die. Death by stoning is the worst thing that could ever happen to any man; it’s a slow and painful death.
My prayers failed one fateful morning; The Pharisees and teachers of the law came to drag me away forcefully form under a man who was with me in bed. They wouldn’t even let the man pay me our bargain. I have been caught by the people of the law. The free service doesn’t matter now, like the shame and the painful death.
At this moment, all the thoughts of my past life started reoccurring to me, my heart was beating at the greatest speed. I knew I was wrong, but I dint know who to blame alongside with me. I knew I wasn’t entirely responsible for the whole stuff. I thought of my parent’s, their own failures, the guys that have spitefully used me. Everything seemed wrong from childhood till now. I do not know what to say to God but I thought He saw all that I went through. I can’t explain why He seemed to fold His arms in my entire dilemma; despite of the way He has been portrayed in our history. I used to think He was a nice God. Perhaps He’s not interested in me, or maybe He’s closed my own case and I’ve been written off.
My blood pressure is rising
Suddenly, my blood pressure began rising, I’d just seen some of the guys that had taken me to bed regularly, and they were among those who came to arrest me. I was mad within me but there was nothing I could do.
Women have no say in our culture; we were almost on the same level with ordinary properties. I’d always wish I was a man but God didn’t let me choose that. I’ve heard Jewish male wake up every morning and said these three lines of prayers of thanksgiving to God.
“Praise be to God he has not created me a Gentile;
Praise be to God he has not created me a woman;
Praise be to God he has not created me an ignorant man”
I wasn’t surprised the man who was in bed with me was let alone. I had no hope, by the time I realized how deep I was in my thoughts; I’ve been set in the midst of a multitude of people. I thought I had come to my place of execution but I didn’t know why they would bring me into the holy temple.
They had brought me to Jesus
Right there in the front of me was standing a man in his early thirties, he was handsome and cute, I know him, I’ve heard so much about him, and they call him the “Messiah”. Some loves him while others hated him but as for me I was about to call him “Lord”.
They tabled my case before him, explained my charge and the penalty it attracted, they had charged me to be stoned till death according to the laws of Moses. But Jesus wouldn’t say a word.
Jesus bent over, and wrote on the ground, I didn’t have the courage to move closer and read what he was writing, but I knew it must be about me. It was as if the whole world went silent in deep anticipation, waiting for what he would say.
My heart was burning within me; I had never faced such a crowd before. I was the subject of discussion; I thought the end had come. Jesus finally lifted up his hand when they wouldn’t stop pressing him for an answer and he gave them one
“Alright you may stone her” he said “but he who is without sin among you should cast the first stone at her”
My heart sunk within me, my tears kept flowing. That wasn’t what I expected. My accusers looked at one another in the eyes. I had thought the chief of them will stone me first, but that wasn’t the case, they all left, one after the other, from the oldest to the youngest, until I was left alone with Jesus, in the face of the crowd. I couldn’t raise my head. I didn’t know what to say to Jesus. He sure saved my life!
My First personal words from Jesus
The moment finally came, When I would hear my first personal word form Jesus, it was a question “where are your accusers” I couldn’t answer; I’ve never felt such a love coming from a voice in my entire life. Then he added “did any man condemn you” finally I had gathered a little courage form his voice, enough to answer his question “no man” I said “no man Lord” Wait a minute! Do you notice I just called him Lord? Yes, I called him Lord for the first time on that day; I called him Lord because I saw love in him He didn’t have to introduce himself. That love had taken care of that. He was truly the Lord. His love told me, His mercy showed me
So, God cared about someone like me!
For the first time I know God cares about me. God has reached me in a personal way. The Lord stood in front of me and the crowd paid attention. Some people began weeping; I knew some of them have a story similar to mine. The Lord’s eyes were like a great well, pouring forth the healing waters of love and my heart reached forth and drank from it. There was something about him that connects us. It wasn’t just his appearance, it was his heart. He looked upon me with such compassion, his eyes were very penetrating, as they went through my heart, I felt a heap of darkness left me, I crumbled completely before him, I felt so unworthy of him, yet I never wanted to leave his presence.
He touched me
Suddenly, there was a hand on my shoulder, it was lifting me up, and it’s the hand of Jesus, lifting me up to himself. I’d never felt such a touch before in my entire life. It was not like the touch of the Pharisees and the Scribes, not like that of any man who had touched me before. It was a healing touch. That touch went through me, it was like a million currents of electricity, only that it was so gentle and cool, I can’t fully described it ,a sort of a liquid love went through my entire being, I wish you were there to experience it, but even now, He’s there with you. He healed me completely of all the pains and traumas of my past. It released an inner peace like I’ve never imagined possible. The touch of Jesus is the touch of love!
“Neither do I condemn you…”
The whole crowd listened as he said to me “neither do I condemn you, go and sin no more”. Right there, he had restored my self esteem back to me. For the first time I was grateful I was caught, but more grateful they brought me to Jesus. I never believed that was an accident, to me it meant God did not fold his arms in my dilemma; He was only waiting for me to come to Him. When He saw I wouldn’t come, He let me get caught and got me brought to Him. I wasn’t expecting a second chance after all my horrible past. He didn’t ask me how many guys I’ve had. He forgave all my sins and gave me a new life.I never want to go back to my old life again,a power entered me when he said “go and sin no more”.I’m transformed forever.Things I used to do I do them no more…
In the grip of grace and mercy
My most sorrowful day became the most joyful day in my life. I have met life on my way to the grave. I had been condemned to death but now he said I may live. All I can say is that I’m grateful for the intervention of Jesus. His mercy wouldn’t let me perish, and His love wouldn’t let me go. Only love can make a miracle and He sure made my misery into a miracle. The law had condemned me but when they wanted to execute me they took me to the mercy seat and mercy prevailed over judgment.
“for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, whom God set forth as a mercy seat by his blood, through faith, to demonstrate his righteousness, because in his forbearance God passed over the sins that were previously committed to demonstrate at the present time his righteousness, that he might be just and the justifier of the one who has faith in Jesus”. Romans 3:23-26.
Give it to Jesus
No matter how shattered your life may be, Jesus can do the same for you. I gave Him all the broken pieces of my life and He did not only fix it, He gave me a new life. What He did for me He can do for you even now, it’s simple, just give it to Him. Jesus is waiting, with the same love, the same compassion, the same mercy…the same acceptance, the same grace and He’s waiting for you…
THE STORY WAS TAKEN FROM JOHN CHAPTER EIGHT WITH EMPHASIS ADDED BY SAMSON AJILORE II. COPYRIGHT OCTOBER2009. SAMSON AJILORE WORLD OUTREACH.(SAWO)





























